Finding my self worth

Well today was a big day for me. I enrolled in college to obtain my masters. I enrolled at Ellis University (http://ellis.nyit.edu/schools/masters/advertising.php) in NY. I am going for my Master's in Communication Arts - Advertising and Public Relations Specialization. It is a big step for me. After having things to fulfill your life and then having nothing, the feeling of worthlessness starts to set in. Yes, Cade is a big part of my life, the biggest part of my life, but I had always told John I would never be able to stay home all day. Understanding this he encouraged me to purse what made me feel better about my self and my life. Luckily this college program is online, so I will be able to still be home with Cade while being able to do something for myself. 

Cade is doing good. Still puking all over the floor. They say the older he gets and the more mobile he gets when he starts walking the puking will start being less and less. They say with his severity of reflux it will take longer than the normal year to dissipate. 

As for John, his first week of office rat is finished with. Only five more to go. We did find out that John's ear did not heal. Monday afternoon, late, we will be going with him to an ENT in Entertprise. He is actually going to the partner of Cade's ENT. Probably because they are the only two within two hours of here. They said he will basically have to have surgery, but the ENT will make the final decision. They said it is out patient and nothing. John looked it up online and said they don't do any cuts or any thing. They put like a patch over it and thats it. What made John more made, was that his flight surgeon accused him of using a cotton swab in his ears. John said he didn't and his flight surgeon said that John was lying. Whatever, I have already lost my faith in Army doctors. Three of them said nothing was wrong with Cade, the one I went to didn't speak English (literally, he used sign language), and now John's doctor put a hole in his ear and caused him to have surgery. It almost wants me to go onto Tricare Standard, but then we pay out of pocket, but yet we get to pick our doctors.